Meeting with a Gatekeeper, Part II

For days, the gatekeeper had wanted to follow up with me regarding our last conversation, but things always popped up at the last minute. We finally met yesterday. Per his request, I mapped out my visions on paper, along with existing skills and personal attributes that would make me a good candidate for his world. He stared at the diagrams and lists intently for a few minutes. "Good," he said, putting down the paper and picking up the coffee in front of him. "From what I know of you, this is an accurate reflection of who you are and who you can be."

We then went on to discuss the specifics of the life I would lead in ten years: What my typical day would be like, what kinds of things I would be doing, and what kinds of people I would interact with. The details were so vivid that I could hardly wrap my head around them. If this conversation were to take place a couple of years ago, I would have been overcome by excitement and wrapped myself in everything the gatekeeper was saying. My imagination would run so wild and so quickly that I might go home and pick out a wallpaper design for my future office. But I have changed. At the back of my mind I was a little more than uncomfortable with the idea of knowing the exact answer to "where will you be in ten years?"

The gatekeeper promised to pull a few strings, and for the first time in months, I was completely at ease with all possible outcomes. I was thankful for his enthusiasm and vote of confidence, but I also knew that God has the most perfect plan anyone can have for my life, and whatever He has decided, He will do.

He called me today, informing me that my access to his world is denied at the moment. There are some things (of which I am painfully aware) that must be taken care of first...and then, we'll see. A few tears of disappointment are shed at the corner outside of my office, but they quickly disappear, as they always do. There is only One who knows exactly where I need to go and when I need to be there. I leave everything up to Him and be the best of what I can be, wherever I am.